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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMYYYYY<333 ILOVEYOUUU

COUNTDOWN

babi ! PMR is nearer and im on the last week of pressure . hoooray but nehh . sumpah kecut perut takot gila babi ni . tuhan je lah yg boleh tolongh aku skrg . bagi jelah aku sikit A pon aku dah happy . sumpah doeee . aku dpt 3A pon , alhamdullilah . aku nak sgt score MATHS , insyaallah boleh . nak dpt kelas gempak gila ni . ahaha .

BREAKAWAY

tahun ni , gosh , baru skrg aku nmpk everything kan ? bodoh oh renee ni kadang2 . this year , macam jauh sgt semua org dgn aku . why ah ? i think it is because bila aku nk jmpe somebody je , mesti tak jadi kott . wtf ah . and the most unwanted thing is that this year punya raya is so unperfect compared to before . sebelum ni raya , fuhh , sumpah syok tapi tahun ni mcm sial . family members pon ta cukup tahun ni masa pagi raya , tak tangkap gamba . is not that im not grateful or bersyukur , aku just nakkan apa yg ada before . like org pon kata kan , time changes and fashion doesnt last long , maybe that is just that matter . haiyahhh .

papa selalu pesan kat aku , as the smallest and the youngest and the cutest , "kena slalu bersyukur dgn apa yg ada . jgn nak merungut je . dpt duit raya RM2 , jgn nk bising , bukan semua org dpt apa yg awak dpt . what is important is always happiness . remember that adik . always compare yourself dgn org yg lagi bawah , jgn compare dgn org lagi tinggi . "


*btw , takde kena mengena pon apa aku borakkan dgn tittle . ahah
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PLASTICK

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri folks . sorry , ampon , maaf for all . first , pagi raya ? hahah . bangon , tahap awal lah kan , pukul 8.00am . bangon , tgk mumy tgh masak lagi . since yesterday . muahaha . yeah , i naik bilik siap siap , pakai jubah biru and turun bawah tunggu org dtg . yeah , tante , ohm tante zee , sya , deera , acap semua smpi dulu lah . then papa ngah .and family . then de and uncle tim . lastly , nak dkt petang , baru ohm dek dtg . babi sial ! aku benci bini kau tu . sialan! urghh , blablabla , mak long , farhana and family dtg . kira kira 35 org ah dlm rumah . ahaha . then beraya . minta ampun ngn mummy papa . OKAY ? duit raya ? hellllll yeahhhhhhhh ! tante linda , RM10 , tante zila , RM50 , papa ngah , RM8 , de , RM100 , unclee timiler RM100 , and papa&mummy , RM150 . PETANG , gerak umah bibik , dpt dlm RM 45 cm tu ah . total semua lah kat area klang punya . ahahah !

DARINA , teringin nak raya ngn kau doe
EKIN , i miss youu so muchhh
SYAHMI , im waiting for your call sayang

open house , ntah lerrr . we'll see .

THE BEST


NOT EXCITED

seriously , im not feeling like having a raya with people . this year , its a big *no *no ! because of the ramadhan is not perfect , the exams is coming , all of this , is disturbing my raya ! argh , feel like running away . im having my raya in bukit jalil je . aunts&uncs is coming to my house and celebrate raya . i just cant wait for the duit raya , thats all . all the lemang and so on , im not feeling it . wearing a blue baju raya this year , i guess . ahaa . to all , selamat hari raya .

on the week of raya , thursday , maybe im going out . i invited BADRUL NIZAM , gosh , i miss him so much actlly . at first , noura invited me , then she told me that some of her friends are joining and yeah , thank god , i know her friends all . masa keluar ni , mmg tgh kaya sgt sgt . HAHA !

exams . pfffttt . lazy to talk about it , just wait okay ?

LETTER TALK

renee: darina , i hate you . what i mean is , i hate seeing you this way . it is so menyakitkan mata . wtf ? you deserve a better world . a better future . not like this ! faham tak apa aku trying to say ?

darina: hmmm , what can i do Renee Rasul ?

renee: F to the O to the R to the G to the E to the T . thats all . billions of peple is gonna be happy if you do this shit . seriously .

darina: i dont think so Renee , its so hard to forget the one that we love so much . yeah , i know it hurt . tapi ni je lah yg aku mampu lakukan . duduk diam and menagis sorg2 . i am nothing now . entahlah nak hidup pn rasa susah apatah lagi aku nak fikir mati . sometimes aku pernah terfikir jugak nak dapat the better life than my life now . ada rumah beli , kereta , happy family , the best friend(maksud aku yg boleh stick dgn aku smpi bila2 . jgn ckp depan je , belakang kutuk aku) . apalah aku mampu buat . aku bknnya kuat . nobody's perfect Renee :(

renee: look darina , you are strong , i know you are but you are just being weak because of your feelings . faham tak ? kau tru daring(berani) dgn org lain , knp dgn dia kau tak boleh ? apalah sgt dia tu ? raja ? no darina ! you hurt a lot from this guy . and people next to you is also hurting seeing you . you sit and cry ? what did you get ? money ? nothing weyh . kau boleh lah darina ! sedangkan org lain ada keyakinan terhadap kau , takkan diri kau sendiri takde keyakinan ?

darina: like i say Renee , nobody's perfect . semua benda yg nak jadi pun bukannya aku tntukan . aku tau aku boleh melupakan dia tapi bukan sekarang or sampai bila2 Renee . mmg aku sakit tapi aku tak nak korang yg rasa kesakitan aku ni sekali . please . aku akui memang sunyi tanpa kau and ekin tapi apa aku boleh buat . korang bukannya 24 hours dgn aku pon . sorry kalau aku byk menyusahkan kau . thanks a lot tapi tolonglah kau jgn paksa aku melupakan dia Renee . aku tau kau bukannya nak dgr kata2 bodoh aku ni but im so sorry , aku tak boleh nak tunaikan janji kau . but i promise mungkin satu hari kalau aku sudah bersedia utk melupakannya aku akn bgtahu kau . aku janji Renee .

renee: up to you darina , i did my tanggungjawab , jgn ckp nnt aku tak ckp kat kau . aku dah cuba dah darina nak buat kau happy , tap balik balik , kau sedih jugak . knp wei ? kau kena move on darina . kau tak nak kitaorg rasa kesaktan kau , tapi sakit jugak mata aku memandang kau darina . aku tak kesahlah kalau kau nak aku tolong kau pape , aku tak penah anggap kau susahkn aku . but aku tak nak darina , tgk kau cam ni . kau boleh tapi kau taknak je lupakan dia . betul tak darina ?

darina: MEMANG BETOL ! thank you friend ! iloveyousomuch<3>

BUKA PUASA

it was friday . and i went to school eventhough mummy&papa bebel kata tayah g sekolah , but i wanna go because i want to see ekin . ahaaa . rindu dia . and hell , darina sampai lambat and i was like sebelum tu , urghhh , baik aku balik , takde kawan dlm kelas . haha . and i miss alip , a lot . ashyraf was there . he said that he was with that akma for 6 months and i was like "ohmygodd , kau tipu aku" and hell , he said that this is all because of that chinese bitch . ahaa . and ekin , fight with darina , again ! goshhh , susah sgt lah . jgn lah gado korang . pleasee . when im with ekin , darina feels lonely , when im with darina , ekin will feel far apart . so i called it hard . i gado dgn ekin , dalam surau . hahaha , taylor swiftttt ... ekin will understand that .

keluar rumah at 5pm and i arrived first . hasnah was there when i arrived . cehhh . bajet ah budak baik . then searchin for darina , she's not there , then i called umi , she said darina dah keluar , ok fine . tunggu jap , then she arrived . she look fabby and cute . hahaha . and guess what , i wore the same colour baju with ustaz amir , ohmygodddddd , handsome sgt ! ahahaa . and hell , darina and i , had a fight with adilla . ahahah , kau ingt kau bagus ? kena skali dgn kitaorg , as i said *mean girls kan ? then we sat at the dewan for the qatam al-quran . sekejap je then baby syahmi call me and asked for darina to be in mapler . bagi alasan , mal nak jumpa , sebenarnya dorang , mal , jeme & syahmi , ajak buka at mapler but darina seems want to be in school for buka , then we walked back and arrived there at 7pm sharp . fyi , syahmi and mal looks so handsome in their baju melayu . i was like "weyh , handsomenyer korang" ahahah . *gedik . after buka , darina&i was like , rokok jom . then tak tahu nak hisap kat mana , then we looked after for mal form3 and we smoked at the back of our school bulding , after a while , a care came and we ran like lipas kudung . ahaha . nasib tak nampk . ahahah . fyi jugak , mal form3 looks handsome . *tinggg

ekin , be strong . iloveyouu <33
darina , be strong . iloveyouuuu <33
u both are verything , jgn sedih sedih okay ? theres always bad and good in life , so take care .

NADIA SWEETIE , THANKS A LOT


Gemuk , be strong ok bad thngs always happen to us soo pray always ok. i ve read at ur blog bout ur father.. its ok he is gonna b fine just pray to Allah that he's gonna be ok.. and be strong renee i know that ur a strong girl and dont be sooo stress for PMR ok just relax and dont play around soo much..andddd dont sleep in class.. be a strong GIRL renee :) ily


if you need someone to hear ur problem im always be there for u ok.. just tell me whatever, i will never tell anyone

MACAM APA JE

ntah mcm kena sumpah apa je family aku ni , dulu nenek dua minggu masuk SJMC , sekarang papa pulak . wtf ? ntah brape minggu lagi . this year is gonna be the WORST raya ever . seriously , duit raya mesti kurang habis . haihhh .

lets pray , ya allah ya tuhanku , aku merayu padamu ya allah , jikalau aku ini hamba yang lemah , engkau kuatkanlah semangatku , jikalau aku tidak berhak hidup di dunia , engkau tariklah nyawa ku , ampunilah segala dosa dosa hambamu , dosa doasa rakan rakan ku , dosa dosa ibubapa ku , jauhilah aku dan ahli keluargaku daripada musibah atau kesakitan , engkau dgrlah doa hambamu ini , ya allah ya rahman ya rahim , amin ya rabbal alamin .

SYASYA ELEENA

cousie , i need help from you . i know you'll read my blog and i dont want you to tell anybody , not a single individual about this okay ? not your mum,dad,sister or anyone . please . im begging you . thanks . iloveyouu . see you soon

IT HURTS

to see papa hurting like this , its all because of the damn green fucking pasu . if not , papa would be allright . i know now that mummy is being so patient with all the consequences . like all , the car , in workshop , it costs about 2,500 ringgit , the maid's passport rm3,680 . and the hospital's bill . like wtf ? if i can help , i'll help , but i cant . its too much pressure now . with my PMR in another few more weeks . wtf ?! i cant even pay attention thinking about my parents . papa , who is in pain now ! mummy , pain with the money to be paid . goshh , i wish i could take over mummy's place and reduce her problems . i cant see her in this way . i just have to act like im normal in front of people , im not the type of person who wants to share problems with people . i can say that because thats me . goshhhhh , with my school , i have not been in school for a few days now , because of all ths . even im so scared that in the end , my friends would be so mad at me for this . cmon , its ramadhan , i have to be patient . seriously , i miss schol already but its just so hard right now . i just hope that they will understand my pressure . like seriously . i miss my friends , especially ekin & darina , my classmates , acap , alip , nadia , johari , jalut , izzat , v , syan , nurul , ezza & more . im so sorry okay ? please be understanding . ekin , im sorry i lied to you about darina's blog . i didnt mean it . but i swore thats the only thing im hiding from you . please , im sorry and i mean it . ampun ?

bukak puasa with papa , mummy & abang in the hospital ward number 319 , old wing . domino's pizza . beef paperronni pizza and some cheese bread with cincau . then , tante came and visited papa . before going home , i went to domino's again to accompony tante to buy her sahur's food and i get myself a teh o' ais & candy fries . its good . and tonite is nabil rasul's shief to take care of papa .

fyi , im so worried about my studies right now . its not balanced at all . i have to look foward of studying like seriously madly . i dont wanna humilated my mum7dad's face . i need strenght . ya allah , kuatkanlah semangat ku dan bekalkanlah aku dgn ilmu yg mencukupi . amin ya rabbal alamin . <33

LOOK A-LIKE ??




MEAN GIRLS


here goes the story of my school years . represented by renee amira rasul , azrul asyikin aziz , darina khaliesa salim & yuzaimi hazmira hamid . the awkward looking one is obviously iera coz she's really not around school sometime , i mean a lot . and three more , of course us ! pick one do you think is the most suitable . the DARING , goes to darina , the HOTTEST goes to ekin and the GANGSTER/BONZER goes to renee . we started as enemies actlly ate . first , ekin fight with dasrina , then renee fight with darina , then renee fight with ekin and so on . it was twisted and in the end it is us who made as bestpals. hoooyeahh , in school , we walked together , we eat together , we laugh together , we cried together and we even fight together , its just that we're in the seperated classes . but we rocked ! anybody especially girls , who had problems handling or seeing us like this , we just dont really give a damn , right girls ? ahaha , hell yeah , our name was written all over the toilet , thats just a prove that we're famous . aha ! seriously , three of us are soooooo GEDIK and its just been annoyed by girls in school . LIFC ? aha . we are just being us . accept the fact that we are one of a kind . to all those jealous girls , mess up once with us , i'll twist u like a twisted transistor baby . you aint mean anything to me , booo yeah !

PAPA

nak ni , bolehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ?

honestly ,

i just want time to past faster than this . i know that everybody just want me to disapeared and gone . like duhh , if my parents pon just dont care , how about friends ? same things . hushh , i just wanna die and look with my own eyes whether they will cry or suffer living without me . i just want it to come closer to me . and yeah , im alive pon , does anybody cares ? i was just humilating , ashamed and a toy to everybody . and p/s : its a secret okay ? i've been hurting so BADLY on my breast . just leave it and see whether its a penyakit or apa-apa . i wanna test those people around me , does they seem to care ? if im hurt , i always tells my mum first but this time , i just wanna let myself know it . i keep praying to Allah S.W.T. that im strong to go through all of thiss mess . time is always the issue . go now , time ! i want to be a grown up person . and die soon . bye people .