well , Happy New Year 2010 people !

ohkayy , i stayed at Novotel next to Pavilion , kindda check in the room 0n the 30th and check out on the 1st January . ohmgg , its a freaking 2010 ! IM GONNA BE 16 and FORM4 , then FORM5 , then BYEBYE SCHOOL! haha , menggelabah je .

i cant wait for first day but i hated second day , GRR

to SYASYA , hey cousiee , sorry to hear bout the whole thing but its okayyyy . still more years to come .

anyway , i would like to take this chance to say thank you to beloved friends who made my day and my first hour of the year . iloveyouguysss till death . and our sins , Allah will forgive us , Insyaallah

After a while

omg , its been so long after i last update my blog . so many things happen .

okay first , my mum bought a new car , Honda Accord , white in colour . when mummy got back frorm work , she was with the new car , i shouted like mad until the neighbours came out , HAHA , guess im to happy and proud .

my results is unpredictable . so many people cant believe i achieve those marks . they were expecting more actually . HAHA , but still , i dont know why , im still proud of myself . like those D's i got , its so typical . im so gonna take Akauns class .

for new year , i was kindda not into it this year because i kindda pinkie swear with ekin that we're not gonna party anymore , i dont know lah wei , but im not going anywhere . im currently in Novotel next to Pavilion .

ohmyyy , i heard about Darina too , damn , im worried about her but i think she can take care herself .

BJ Crews 09

im gonna miss every single thing in 2009 in my school , Bukit Jalil High School . everything looks nice and great , especially in 2009 . the seniors , my friends thats moving out and more . sumpah , i never had this exciting year . im gonna miss my backups , im gonna miss jeme , mal , fitri , dan , jijoy , arep , dolah , nathan , sheh and semua lah , im gonna miss skipping class , im gonna miss maple , im gonna miss PMR , im gonna miss Low Kwan Mok , im gonna miss Asyhraf , and all . i just hope that nothing is gonna tear us apart between Renee , Ekin , Darina and Syahmi . we've always been one gang . i just hope school years ends faster . HAHA , i started to wonder how next year's gonna be ? more fun or more sorrow ? watch and see . and i feel like applying tekniks or asrama but i dont know , i want but im not ready to live by my own . i just cant leave everything back , especially my air-cond . HAHA , besides , im the spoilt one in the family , how are they gonna live ?

Results is on the 24th , what do you think ? may Allah be with me . still counting

For Intan

by syasya eleena

Intan , this is the other tong yg u've been asking , HAHA . GET IT ?



14th DEC

i woke up around 11am or something . at 8am something , Intan called and said that Aida wanted to hang out together with us and i was so sleepy that time i just go "ohmmygod" , HAHA , then i woke up i saw syasya still sleeping , then i just gerakkan dia and said "wei , Aida nak lepak sekali dgn ktorg" and HAHA , she went "haaaaaa ! apasal?!" haha , kelakar lah minah lodeh ni . thenthen , nasib baik Intan ckp yg Syamil ada , terus dia taknak dtg . if not , kering aku ! ahaha , abg acap hantar kitorg kat McD around 12.30 kott .

when we arrived , Intan gerak food court and amik Syamil and Syafiq . honestly , kesian dorang tak tido . HAHA , and we just ate French Fries the whole day . HAHA , then Farah and Luqman dtg . i was so malu masa tu . then i , Intan and Syasya gerak smoking section and i smoked , whoshh , what a relieve and Intan smoke ! HAHA , then Syamil and Syafiq join us . deadada , Farah ajak shisha then we gerak but its closed . so we gerak to Station 1 and played pool and stff . i was feeling so dizzy until i cried . HAHA . problem betol . the worst part is air longan yg mahal tu i thought is RM1.50 , samad tak ? then i have to use Intan's money . sumpah bersalah ohh . sorry tan? and i think i used Intan's money more than she owed me . goshh , tak best langsung pakai duit org .

then then , Tante Linda amik , went home and Intan took a ride with us . balik makan pizza hut and 100yen . finally , im in Bukit Jalil . intan , sorry about Langkawi .


heylooo ,

sumpah tak belah hari ni , woke up around 10 in the morning and i went upstairs to the room , and yeaa , i was high that time , and started to sing "bad romance by Lady Gaga" , i tell u , its so funny . then , i liedown and started to sleep back , woke up again at 12pm . HAHA , then blablabla , gerak Bangsar and jumpa De , Timmiller , Papa and Mummy .
*i miss Mummy actually . HAHAAH , at night , around 2am , gerak Kopitiam and the place is almost closed . sampai2 nmpk Faiz Alimin , he looks so ketat , maybe because he saw budak 13 . hmm , the guilty part is Intan , Syamil and Syafiq kena jalan dari Star and balik2 kat Star semata-mata nak amik i , shitt . HAHA , tapi takpe kott , they felt guilty too ! HAHA , fair enough .

darina , im so sorry , i cant really focus what you were saying but i totally get it , sumpah ! zube just dead ! im just so worried about you , seriously .

syahmi , chill with the RM600 . you can face it , i know

shitttttttttttttttttttt ,
PMR's result is coming , fuckerrrrr !


Friday , hang out again with Caca , Nabil , Faiz Alimin , and Intan . we meet up at Starrbucks Taipan an we walked to Taipan Food Corner and drank . we chatted and blablabla , meet up Hilal and his friends . and Caca wanted to eat at McD so we went there and lepak . and Intan's friend , whoaa , gangster but small . Faiz Alimin and I cant stop laughing when we hear her story . HAHAHA . Nabil cried for a while , i dont know what is his purpuse of doing it . HAHA , blablabla , Deera pick us uup and went back .


Fire Burning

Thursday , myself , Intan , Syasya , Nabil and Danny hung out together for the whole day . first , i woke up at 10am just because Deera and Khairil came in the house with the BANGGG on the door , i got shocked and shy , i went up and baring in Syasya's room . blablabla , i called Nabil and asked him where he is because we promised to have breakfast together in Kopitiam . Nabil and Danny arrived riding a motor bike/scooter , and guess what ? i ride a motor for the very first time . OMGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE , and i was kindda JAKON for the very frist time . i was high and just sat on the motor bike and Nabil just ride the motor . Nabil and Danny pick up Intan syasya and I waited for them . HAHAHA , syasya ordered "tea o SEJUK" , isnt that funny? it supposed to be "tea o ais". plus , there's this fucking annoying pengkid tried to flirt with Syasya . whoaa , thats a whole damn of a shit . yucker !

then , i walked back to the house and we lepak watching Jennifer's Body . Danny and Nabil are so sweet . honestly , they are so efficient , i called them to come and lepak , in like 5 minutes , there they are . HAHA , there's two digital cameras , one is Nabil's olympus and Intan's Canon , whoaaaaaaaa , we took pictures like mad . HAHAH , and blablabla , we all cooked burgers and sausages . Nabil and Intan were like housemother and housefather . HAHAH , and Danny sat infront waited for food , so cute ;)

at night , we lepak again in Kopitiam . we were actually wanted to Shisha but damn it , its closed . blabla , im a tutor that nite , teaching Intan how to smoke a ciggarets . HAHA , its funny and fun . HAHA , so cute man . i was hanging out with Nabil , Danny , Din , Faiz Alimin , Syasya and Intan . and guess what , Din and Danny went out for a while to send Danny's motorcycle back to his house . and when they arrived , din threw the motor keys to the table and Nabil like whattafakkk shouted "MAK ! MAK ! MAK ! MAK !" , he melatah . cant do anything . i was so shy and i went somewhere and acted like someone call but actually im talking alone . whoa , people were staring . HAHA , at 10pm or something we pay up the bill and we walked to Padang USJ 11 . Din was crazy riding a bicycle with a HELMET . omgeee , HAHA . so funny , and hell , he's wearing a boot *actually not , it just looked like one . HAHA , and he's hair , ROBERT PATTINSON ! hahah , we lepak and took pictures . AND we ENJOYED kutuk-ing and gossip-ing about Fatasha the babi budak sial . and Nabil was so stupid went out for a while and lumba haram with Ali until he got caught with a police . but he's okay now .

walked back home , and Nabil and Alimin accompanied us back . then , Din came . we lepak until 12 something . OHH YEAA , Nabil french kissed Din , OMG ! hahaha , so funneh . and Intan went back home at 4 something . whoa , here comes the best part . at 3.15 , syasya were dead sleeping and Intan also i guessed , then i go to the kitchen and cooked a burger silently . i gave the smell of the burger to Intan and she just took the burger and ate it . then we cooked another one . i was so lazy to go back of the house to make its uncold , i just put it inside a water . while , the oil on the kitchen was so hot , and i was so stupid to just put the burger inside the pan and whoshhhhhhh there's a FIRE ! hahaha , Intan and I went crazy laughing of that fucking fire . and guess what , Intan was thirlled . HAHAH , awesome kan Intan? after Intan went back , i fell asleep , a dead sleep .


Confession of a Broken Heart ( daughter to father )

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter.
And I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better.
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Family in crisis that only grows older.
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I am broken, but I am hoping.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I am crying, a part of me's dying.
And these are, these are, the
confessions of a broken heart!

And I wear all your old clothes your polo sweater.
I dream of another you, one who would never.
Never, leave me alone to pick up the pieces. Daddy to hold me, that's what I needed.

So,why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I don't know you, but I still want to.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me?
Cause these are, these are,
the confessions....!!! of a broken heart!
Of a broken heart!

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I ... I ... I ...
I love you!

Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I don't know you, but I still want to.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me?
Did you ever love me?
These are the confessions of a broken heart! 

Ohh ... yeah

And I wait for the postman to bring me a letter. 

The Wednesday

today , its 9.12.2009 . i woke up early today around 9am . straight away to the pc and online my myspace . and i saw ekin was online , then all the sudden she called me and said "awal gila kaubangon" . ahah , she always is the best . and blablabla , gerak subang around 10.30am . and arrived at syasya's . wohooo , i was running crazy singing with ekin , especially "halo" and "here without you" . we are crazy baby ! and we always laugh remembering the past .L ike duh , we rock ! i miss her . ohhh , and i watched the movie "Perfect Snogging" , its pretty awesome because the guy is so HOT like mad . haha , and guess what , i played the guitar well today . heeefyi , i dont even knw how to play a guitar . *suka action je . i got a call from ekin , when i was in the car with Syasya&Deera . she kindda told me about her boyfriend . i kindda get mad and angry when this guy trying to messed things up . like seriously , dont underastimate my friend pleaseeeee :) blablabla , makan kat Stadium and Makbul . perghh , milo tabur is best drink everr . haha . then , Nabil Hussin and his friend *Danial , we laugh , we joke and we gossip . hahah , finally , my missing at Nabil ends . HAHA , as a friend . tommorow , i havee a breakfast appoinment with them and i hope Intan is coming . tooodlesss , gtg .
goddd , im just so scared thinking about my PMR results . like seriously , people are so pushy about it . papa , mummy , uncle tim , ayah jalil and ofcourse , uncle wan . tologlah . im so nervous , anxious , scared and so much more . only god knows how it feels . if i fail this , im so dead . so so dead . i just have to say goodbye to birthday present , hotel room , canon , iPhone , new year celebration and people's respect . OMG , whats more ? dnt tell me there's more . huhh , im just sick thinkin thinkin thinkin about it . its nearer now . omgshh, chillax renee . choww
the first thing i wanna tell you guys is that darina is all fine and okay . whoa , what a relieve . i received a call from her number at 1.19am and thanks god i wasn't asleep that time . gosh , i miss her like damn . and we talked . the best part is zube has a fucking girlfriend . great , and darina , move on bitch ! hahha , and she told me that she saw my blog that i wrote about her . and yeah , she said it was okay but indeed she's touched with what i said . sorry darina ? i felt so guilty about that . ohh and , i kindda waited for a couple of hours for her call but nehh , she didnt call . she said she's calling kamil for a while and she told me she's calling me back so i waited but no call received .its okay .

yesterday , i went to Emir's birthday party . hmmm , it was boring at first but when the food is served , yeah , it gets better . and people are starting to get crazy . Zaid is being such a damn fucking annoying with his SPM is about to end . fuck! the fun part , when i queued with Danial to take food , i asked the waiter to put full plate of rice for him , and guessed what , he's so pissed and tried so hard to finished it . haha , serve you right ! then then , the marhaban starts , Emir's lil brother cukur jambul's event starts . fucking boring ! then Zaid , Danial , Dila and me went out . to take fresh air . aha aha , we went back in and people were staring , and asking and asking where were we . we answered , we're at the toilet . ahaha . blalabla , there's this lady who sat with us named , Auntie Zahura and her two daughters . i was just so annoyed by them . whatsoever . and the end .

Hakim , you screwed up , man . with my best friend ekin . im so gonna cut your balls . you fucking asshole

i really looked forward nak lepak Subang , then ada lah orang ni(Syasya) pegi Sarawak . ahah , soka
yy . enjoy the trip lah and have a safe trip .rindu Nabil ohhh . eceehh , yesterday , i view Sya's blog and she sort of giving me some compliment , i'll copy it for you . it sounded like this :

Renee Amira - you're my best friend and the best cousin that i ever had (haha muka bangga ah tu :b) yeah , you are annoying , you like to make people laugh and you really like to usha hot boys HAHAHA and you know how to settle things by yourself :D and i know you are great . you always understand how i feel , when i feel sad or anything . and you really like to tease like HELL:b

thanks lah sya , you're the best too . but one question , am i that annoying ? ;)

next , i wanna talk about new moon . like whattafakk . people on the radio are currently say
ing bad things about my Robert Pattinson . people are saying that he doesnt know how to act and blablabla . but the question is , WHAT THE HELL DID YOU EXPECT FROM A VAMPIRE CHARACTER ? huhh , and pleade people , stop it with the "Robert is a bad actor!" fuck you retarded people who doesnt know how to appreciate . how pathetic is that . its typical Malaysian that loves to judge , look at your industry okay ? its worse . whatever it is , I LOVE YOU ROBERT PATTINSON !

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Lets talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and I'm feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

I wanna know what love is, lets talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...

whooooooo . again again again and again . DARINA , im so upset with what you've done to us(ekin,me&iera) . you know it yourself that we're gonna take the blame .we can take it for you but for how long ? we cant stand being push so hard with you family . yes , when i shouted at you , you'll say "you dont understand my situation,Renee" . what do you mean by i don't understand ? you are the one who dont understand all this . suka hati kau lah wei .

for god's sake . im having this ear infection like damn . my left ear is hurting so badly . it hurts like whattafakk . it feels like im deaf or something . cam sial ! urghhhhh .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG ! you're not a teenager anymore , 20yearsold-guy!

gtg , im out . xoxo .

I hate you Renee

You're so whatever! Mengade ngade, aku ckp lain kau ckp lain. U're being so whtever urghhh. Its not funny renee, its not even in the same zip code as funny! Im serious and u're trying to create some bullshit story. WHAT THE? I hate you I hate you I hate you mengade sgt kn kate out of credit la ape la Okay fine, i wont pick up ur call dh lepas ni Toodles~